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“A Viable Die-able Age”

“A Viable Die-able Age”

When you’re young, you don’t think about death. Or, the luckier amongst us don’t have to. Sure, your cat may get run over. Or the silkworms in your shoe box may stop moving. But that is death that is on the very edges of your life – you always know it’s there but it doesn’t … Continue reading

Tattoos: Love or Loathe?

Tattoos: Love or Loathe?

Excuse the rather strange expression on my face. I was NOT actually trying to pull off a “Blue Steel”, I was making a train sound (choo choo) to try to get Ben to smile. And it worked. Kind of. Do you know how hard it is to take a photo of you and your baby … Continue reading

On Wide Open Spaces

On Wide Open Spaces

My soul feels a little bit squished at the moment. How can I explain it? Instead of a clean white piece of paper sitting peacefully on a desk, I feel like I’m squashed and crumpled up into a little ball, all my thoughts jumbled together in a messy wad of paper that someone’s about to … Continue reading

A Day of Love

A Day of Love

So today is Valentine’s Day. I remember being very excited about The Day of Love once upon a time. I think it was when I was 16 at boarding school and the boys at our brother school used to send us roses. They’d call our names out at breakfast while we were seated in the … Continue reading

Losing a Parent: How to Cope

Losing a Parent: How to Cope

Nothing and no one can prepare you for losing a parent. In fact, a friend likened it to having a baby, in that they are both life events that alter you completely, and no amount of advice or research can adequately prepare you for what the reality will be like. This is my Mom and … Continue reading

You Can’t be Good at Everything..

You Can’t be Good at Everything..

Although some people try. You know those people? They’re usually really good-looking, super achievers at work and then they still run marathons and stuff. I get tired just looking at them. No, you can’t be good at everything and one of the great things about getting older is that you realise what you’re actually pretty … Continue reading

Rachel the Brave: A Letter to my Daughter

Rachel the Brave: A Letter to my Daughter

My first “bragging post” was about baby Ben and you can read that here.Ā This is my second (and last) bragging post for 2013, a letter to my daughter, to Rachel the Brave: Dear Rachel Did you know that we never really intended to have a daughter called Rachel? It was a not a name we … Continue reading

Searching for a Pink Puppy

Searching for a Pink Puppy

Rachel came home yesterday with strict instructions to write a letter to Father Christmas and take it back to school with her today. She decorated the whole thing with fairy stickers, did her special kind of scribbling and then instructed me to write and ask him for a…PINK PUPPY. Errrr, okay then. A puppy is … Continue reading

He’s Gone

He’s gone. And all I can think about are all the things he’ll never do. He’ll never smell the earth after a highveld rainstorm. Or watch jacaranda petals drift lazily to the ground. He’ll never wear those hats he wore, or smile that smile he smiled. He won’t grow old. He won’t find one person … Continue reading